lunch

My mom called me today and asked me to go to lunch at with her and some work colleges. When I got there she was sitting with two men chatting. We all starting talking and it just so happens that these men have sons who are in bands. One is in Nashville and the other is in FL. I start talking to them about the bands b/c I love music - they both start laughing and say that both their sons bands are signed with Universal. What? Who are your sons? What bands are they in?
Dad 1: My son is the lead singer in a band called Anberlin
me: No way, get out of here.
Dad 1: Yeah, you've heard of them?
me: I have their albums and I've seen them in concert! I really like them
Dad 1: They just went on tour with some band called Nine Inch Nails...

The guy in the front is Steven Christian - Dad 1's son.


Then I talked to Dad 2 and his son is the drummer in a band called Paper Route. Dad 2 left for a few minutes then came back with his sons album and handed it to me. He had an extra one in the truck and he wanted me to have it. I've been listening to them this afternoon and I'm really digging their stuff. http://www.myspace.com/paperroute

best show ever

Life is great. Last night was the Coldplay concert and it was by far the best concert I have ever been to. We started by parking at Julia's house and walking to the amphitheatre. We had a big group of people so we all spread out over blankets. The sun set and the stars came out - the best ambiance for a concert. We laughed, we sang, we hugged, and we danced. We frolicked and danced around the lawn as the rhythm and sound of Chris Martins voice washed over us. I felt like a hippie at Woodstock. I have a lot of new friends in my life and I have to say that they are quality people. I don't feel the need to act like someone I'm not in front of them. I'm blessed to be surrounded by such beautiful people on the inside and out. Here's a taste of the goodness...







Tonight we are heading to the opening of Sky Bar down at the beach. Em is awesome and is giving us tickets. I know I'm going to hate my life tomorrow at work when I can't keep my eyes open - but it will be worth it.

I got an email from my agent in NYC today. She wants me to come up to the city for an audition for an underwear commercial / photoshoot. I can't go b/c of the job...FAIL. I'm am totally bummed because I would L O V E to land that gig. She said it's a very prestigious client but she couldn't release the name. I'm trying not to be bummed - I'm just trusting the Lord on this one and knowing that he's got me right where I need to be. It's still hard though (ggrrrr).

On the flip side work has been great lately. I feel like I'm actually apart of the team now and that I'm contributing to things. Feels good. Today we got to see a video of what happens when we put a fabric donation to good use in Niger. It was given to a man who was a Muslim but gave his life to the Lord and was disowned from his family and family business.The man used it to make curtains, employed women who didn't have jobs, and turned it into a business. The business got bigger and bigger and now he's designing clothes for the president and all kinds of dignitaries. Amazing story - I guess I can get more satisfaction out of providing things like this rather than getting in front of a camera in my undies huh? I think so.

getting over it

So as many of you know I've been going through a little bit of a transition time spiritually. I'm not really even sure how to explain it. I have been a Christian for a very long time now - my dad is a pastor so I've been in church since shortly after birth. My walk with the Lord really started to flourish 2 years ago. God really took a hold of my life and I began to see him move and speak to me in ways I never have before. Through the progression of the past year or so I've taken on more responsibilities in church and with the Life Group I run at Shores. A slow progression of fatigue started to set in though. I felt like there was always some unattainable goal I was striving for and that people I was surrounded by in church were expecting me to fit into a certain mold of what a Christian should look like and be. This bothered me for a while but I was still getting so much good out of attending there that I just pushed the negative thoughts aside. Finally I got tired of it. I don't think that we can put God in a box and I think that God speaks differently to each person. I also feel that each person lives their faith out differently than the next - there are many different things about people's lives that make it this way. I am a little internally rebellious and I don't like being told how to live my life or not being given the freedom to be the individual I was created to be. There's a lot more to this but I'm not going to get into it now.

After much dissatisfaction, I've taken a step back from my church and sadly, God as well. I got so burnt out that I just walked away from things for a while. It's been over a month since I've even opened my Bible or taken time to just talk to God. I'm finally starting to realize that I need to get over my personal issues with the church and whoever else. It's ok to be dissatisfied with a church, to question things, to think outside of the box - but I don't need to let this process get in the way of MY personal relationship with God. I've learned a lot, grown a lot, and God has increased me so much in the past few years as a person. I don't want to be stupid and lose ground just because I'm having a rebellious moment - I know better than this.

So today, I'm asking God to soften my heart again. I've started to get cold and hardened towards God and he has done nothing but amazing things in my life. As I was driving to work I said to myself, "Amy, you need to get over it." I feel like I'm sheepishly coming back to God and saying - Sorry! I'm back now! This thought makes me smile b/c I know I serve a God of love and grace and all he is thinking is - Amy, it's good to have you back.

i should be sleeping.

I had a killer leg workout tonight. I know I'll be in pain tomorrow but I like it. I have to say that I'm loving being back in the gym. Tonight I went to grab a drink with Brit and Caitlin (two of my good girl friends). I haven't had much of an opportunity to hang with them lately. I had such a nice time with them and as I was driving home I started to think about how much of a kick ass summer I'm going to have. I am at a time in my life where I am taking advantage of every moment and life and I feel like I'm surrounded by people who feel the same way. Therefore, I will never be at a loss for companions to have a good time with. Here is a short list of things of things I'm looking forward to this summer.
- One wedding to attend this month and 2 next month
- Champagne Only Pool Party
- concerts (I'm going to see Coldplay Wed night)
- getting two more tattoos
- summer fashion/shopping (now I actually have money to do this)
- weekend trips to NYC, Philly, and maybe another trip out west
- hot yoga
- chocolate tasting at The Royal Chocolate
- New Moon, the new Harry Potter movie, and Terminator coming to theatres
- ALL of my family coming here in July
- going to VEGAS at the end of July
- surfing with Nicole

There will probably be another few posts about plans for the summer, but this is a general outline of things so far. I am just loving being around people and having a good time - what more can one ask for?

oh crap...

I have to share this because I died laughing. Scroll down and you will see a blog titled "hot". It's about this guy (named Tripp Crosby) that my friend Nicole and I follow. We look at his blog at work b/c it's hilarious and it keeps us entertained through the day. We also love that he's tall and handsome b/c we're giant women (I'm 5'10 and wear atleast 3 inch heels to work every day - so I'm a tower) and we appreciate tall men. Anyways, I posted the blog about him b/c I know a lot of my friends would find his blog funny like I do! Well today I was rereading my "hot" blog and I saw at the bottom that I have one comment. I figured it was Nicole or my sister commenting on it. So I nonchalantly open up the comment and I see:

trippcrosby said...
Flattered.

Ummm so this means he saw my blog that I posted about him being soo hot and sooo funny etc. etc.....!!! I instantly think, how in the hell did he see my blog?! But then I remembered that I just started following him on Twitter so maybe he saw my blog link on that. I didn't think he would actually look at it! Hahahaaa!! Oh crap...I am "THAT" girl. Oh I laughed hard. Am I embarassed? Maybe a little...but eh well. It's more so funny to me than anything. The only communication we've ever had and he thinks I'm the crazy girl. DERN.

I think it's so important for women to be classy. I am a layed back, fun loving, outgoing girl...but above all I try to remain classy. I say this b/c lately - I find myself having more and more moments where I end up being "that" girl. You know those socially awkward situations that happen and leave both parties walking away thinking, WTF? Well yeah, that's me lately and I don't get it. What's happening to me?! I use to be all suave and smooth but I'm losing it quickly. Now I'm just awkward. I find that I'm laughing at myself a lot more lately so I guess there are some good things that are coming from it. Ha - cheers people!

in my words...AWESHOME.

The last two weeks of my life have been a little crazy - and I'm loving it.

Starting the new job has been such a breath of fresh air. It's given me some much needed consistency to my life. I'm working longer hours than I have in the past, but the job is freeing up so much time to hang out with other people. I like being on the same schedule as everyone else. Plus I work with friends so going to work isn't even like going to work! The only thing that sucks is that I'm not sleeping for as many hours as I would like to, but whatever. The past year and a half I've been SO focused on certain goals (supporting and pursuing my modeling career, etc.) that I feel like I became rigid. It's good to be goal oriented and focused, but it's also good to know when to slow down and enjoy life. This is where I am: enjoying life. Enjoying friends, culture, music, food, conversation, art - an endless list of things. I'm fixated on new things and new experiences. If this means I go to bed late a few nights and have to drink a few extra cups of coffee at work the next day then so be it.

Angela, me, and Nicole - friends/coworkers. We're a power house at work and we have fun doing it.

Last night was so much fun. Went to dinner with some girl friends and then headed out to meet up with a bunch of people and danced the night away. So much fun. I met new people and saw a lot of people I haven't seen in a while. I'm really enjoying the crowd of people I've been around lately. A lot of new friendships are being formed in my life and I really like this.

Anyone want to sketch 2 tattoos for me? I want to get the meaning of my name (anointed and beloved) running along my sides, by my ribs and back (one word on each side). I want to get this done this summer sometime.

hot

I think I'm in love....seriously. Remember that leadership conference I talked about a few posts ago? Well this guy was at the conference serving as a co-host. He is HILARIOUS, tall, creative, beautiful...the list goes on. Well Nicole and I (she's a coworker/friend) have kinda been stalking him and we're both fighting for his love (not really, but kind of). Here is his blog....check it out.

www.trippcrosby.com

I would also like to say that I had a lovely evening tonight. I have never hung out with this guy one on one before. He asked me to go running at Seashore State Park and I was pleasantly surprised. I love doing stuff like this but no one else ever does. We went and grabbed sushi after to continue the hangout time. Great conversation, some laughs, good sushi, and being outside surrounded by the beautiful outdoors. It was a nice change of scenery.